About Me

I've always felt that I could achieve just about anything if I put my mind to it. The problem is that I never seem to be able to dedicate my self wholly to anything; even the thing I desperately want or need to succeed at. I am admittedly lazy, I have tried to break myself of this without much luck. No matter how excited or interested in something initially I lose interest and motivation eventually. This is easily my biggest character flaw, it has cost me a number of things that are important to me. I know this and yet as of now I have no idea how to change this about myself. I find this especially true at work. I like my job, I like what I do(as much as you can like work) and I think the people I work with are some of the best people I know. Yet more often I find my mind wandering and I can't concentrate on the simplest of tasks. I am sure part of this is because I am unsatisfied with some of the choices I have made that have brought me to this point in my life. I make no excuses, I am responsible for my life as it is now. Some choices I would change if I could; Some I would make a million times. But too much time spent dwelling on the past can be harmful. I have modest goals for my life. I want a 2 bedroom condo or house will a few luxuries but not many. I would like to have a family beyond myself and Hailey someday when I have the means to. I would like someone to share the ups and downs of life with; someone who occasionally will help me be strong enough to be the person I know I need to be and that I can do the same for. The last thing I want is for the people I love to be happy. Perhaps my goals are not as modest as I had earlier thought but I will achieve them someday. I am sure the road will not be easy but it's not supposed to be. That's what makes the journey worth it. I probably said more than I meant to and rambled on longer than I should have but I'm ok with that.